I'm Trippin

I'm only posting this here cause tumblr seems to be way too social and i need to get a couple things out.

Look what we have is great, you're a beautiful person, i appreciate you, and the feeling we get when we get to spend time together is amazing. But past all of that.. i just don't think you realize how hard this is for me. How much I'm being tested right now. First it was patience , then came responsibility, and now credibility. I feel like i have to think over everything i do or even SAY to you.. because it's not good enough. Whatever happened to the time where what ever i said made you laugh and i didn't think? It's so hard to get back to, really. I'm trying to pull my self together so that we don't fall apart. I just hope God's on my side.

The awkwardness i create when i think is unbearable. I'm so sorry, let me get back to being myself...I just hope it isn't too late.

If you read this pray for me! i really need it!

Tc&Gb
-Mik